Been a couple... I'd like to apologize to you out there that actually read my site on a regular basis. I suck. I don't update oftenn enough to entertain you. I apologize. I'm sure that I couldn't even be interesting to the people that are so bored that they begin to look at all of the most recently updated blogs. I've partaken in this "bored bloggist ritual" and have come across a couple of good blogs. One of which I've gotten in contact with the person updating it and have become pen pals? I know for sure that that can't be right....I don't use a pen when I write her... Oh well. I don't know whyy it's seems a lot cooler to write to someone that you don't know at all. Sure, I can see it's benefits: you don't have to be who you really are, you can start anew with this person. But in truth, at least for me, I know that I've never really wanted to start over with someone, and I'm not trying to mess with this person at all. Just an honest email and comment relationship. It's cool. I have nothing to hide but it's not like we're talking about that type of stuff... That I keep for my girlfriend (he he...It's weird to say that... Our realtionship has gone untitled by us for a week). I just find it interesting that I can keep in contact with someone that I don't know at all except from what they want to tell me when I've got some life-long friends that I have problems keeping in touch with. I'm sure we all have this sort of deal in some way or another but I find it very weord of myself coz I really don't even like writing emails, but for some odd reason I will do it to keep contact with this one person that I don't even know. Harsh reality. Yup, that's what it is. Well, the pigs have flown the coop. Must go hunt some beef. Mmmm... Until then---

Weekend Update... I promise that it'll be at least up to par with Norm MacDonald. It basically started with Aaron, my roommate, dumping his morning/afternoon smoothie atop his own head. That sums up how great the weekend went! Later that day, being Saturday, we (Christina, Paul, Aaron, and I) all felt the urge to go out and actually do something for a change. This was amazing considering that we rarely all hang out anymore due to odd schedules. It was even more odd because our secret agent of a roommate, Grant, was actually in town for the weekend and even came back from wherever he was before we decided when and where we were going. Ahh...decisions. Not really any tough decisions because there really isn't too much to do here in O.C. At least if you're under 21 and are in center to north county (us exactly). So our compete party for the evening: Me, Aaron, Grant, Christina, Paul, and a new member and quite very special person in my life, Faye. Let's just say that the new mini-tape recorder that I got definitely has served it's ultimate purpose in that one day. Lots of funny things happened and we all lost many calories just laughing at things all night long. And the next day. And probably today...
Well, more juicy things next time. Stuff with true meaning not just my daily life....coz I don't even want to hear about that... Until then---

Goodness! I do believe that I've been quite broken. Awesome experience that I've never encountered. I can't explain it at all.... But I am soooooo excited about it.
Things are obviously well over here, how about you? For only $2.95 you can... I don't really know what I'm offering. Or how I'd get all of your money for it but that was almost good. I could have gotten rich. Right. It's odd how a good mood can make you act almost an entirely different way towards people. I am not usually one to hide my emotions too well, but I also don't do too much in the "mood swing" category. I've never really observed myself before. This is just as cool as people watching...except it's just one person and that one person is me and it's really nothing like people watching...
I finally got the time that I will be on the radio here at Chapman and conveniently online. It's going to be awesome. I've always wanted to be on the radio and now I get to do it and get college humanity credit for it! Oh yeah!! So I'm going to be on at the wee hours of Monday morn: 12:00 to 2:00... AM. Yeah, I going to be praying that I don't mess up as it is with out the tired factor being in there. Egads (I actually said this today!), it's going to be a little tough but it's all good. I'm up for it. Well speaking of up... he he, of course it's time for... yeah... yeah... the dreaded sleep. It ahunts me and causes me to sepell wrong thigns. This is me with out going back to chevk my writuing. I guess not too bas but still... I wouldn't want you as confused as i always am. I'm going now to help the Oompa-loompas sing their jolly tune. Dumpa-dee-doo! Until then---

Tired? I am so exhausted! I'll just say that soccer hurts when you haven't done it in a while. Other than the pain in my hips, and bruises elsewhere (I even have one on my thumb... Unfortunately, I think that it's from playing video games though, esp. TH3... I hope not though...), the day went rather well once again. Maybe even better than the last entry, especially because I didn't get locked out of my room. Anyway, I got to share my testimony (for those who don't know what that means, for a Christian it's just the story of how their faith came to be... Usually telling a lot about their life) last night at Refuge (Chapman's Christian "Club"[I like Family better!]). I've only told that to a couple of people... Ever. And I shared with twenty people last night! Wow. That's a large jump from two to twenty. He he... that's fun to say really fast... two to twenty; two to twenty...
Well I don't have much else to say tonight. Nothing stupid or oddly querky (is that a word?) to philosophize. Things are good though; Quite well really; Ca va bein. I'm off my rocker once again. To the dreaded Sleep! Until then---

We'll say: "Good day..." For all intents and purposes, yesterday went well. The only major hitches were that I didn't ever make it to Circuit City so that I could get a mini tape recorder (to be later explained) and this came across because for the majority of the day I was locked out of my room. Sux? Heck yeah! But that's totally ok coz I got to spend quality time with our favorite person and fellow guitarist in Breakfast Epiphanies, Christina! We spent time working on the new website and I was busy coming up with random riffs that I was trying to remember lyrics for. Unfortunatly, I hadn't memorized ANY of the songs that I'd written that needed music so then was the quick realization that I didn't have the key to get back into my room. Horrible... I was distraught. This made things tough for me especially since I can't remember how I want things to go if I don't write them down or make record of them in some other way. Hence the need for the mini-recorder! I have a problem remembering the rhythms of the riffs I come up with so this would enable me to quickly be refreshed. But, of course, I never made it to the store. Sux? That's twice-fold!
I'm sure that I'm not making this day sound well-off but honestly thrugh all of that, we got a good start on the official Breakfast Epiphanies site and I ended up geting two new songs finished...mostly. That's an accomplishment by all means! Be proud! I am...
Well the infernal neccesity disguised as "sleep" is calling my name... "edward.... edward..." It's so mean that it won't even capitalize my name! Oh well, maybe that's just how I heard it...I should have been able to record it! Oh well... more insight later. Leave me one! Until then---

I believe Aaron will say it best... Aaron and I had a conversation today about blogs, this wonderful diary-type set up that has gotten me hooked on webdesign and the like. We have been visiting some random blog recently and have come to notice one thing for sure: all of the people with something to say all come off as unhappy, or at least have something traumatic going on in their life. He thought that that is why our blogs don't get updated nearly as much as they should be and why they aren't as interesting as others (this definitely meaning mine, at least when I say it). I just guess we're too happy-go-lucky and the like. The world is a peach, got to go eat it all up...Fuzz and all. Mmmmm...
Well I know that I've tried having normal diaries and they never really worked for me. All I do is write poetry and songs... Not great literature for web reading alone. So I've got that in a separate section while this home page lives on. I'm not sure why but I like being able to use this as some sort of outlet but I don't know what I'm ever really trying to say and all that sort of thing. We've got this band thing going on here and that takes up a lot of my time that I don't spend pretending to do my homework that consists of music theory and essays. It makes this sort of a thing I do on the back-burner of my time, but I don't want it to be that. If it becomes that entirely, my site will go to hell. And there will be NO coming back. It sucks for me coz I don't know what to say... well mainly I don't how to say it... in full sentences. It's even harder when I read other random and not so random sites that are so well written, it makes me feel so crappy about my own while at the same time allowing me to realize what I could do with this web space. Hmmm... The Final Frontier.
The other thing is: I know that i want others to read this site, from random people to my closest friends but there is like a total of 4 people reading this!! And that is an over-estimate I'm sure. But should I care that much? Idunno? Well I know that I'd like people to know what goes through this odd little mind of mine. I also know that it's nice to get at least some of it out using an almost proper-like format. I don't know... Well I do know that my guestbook is obsolete; no one uses it and I'm tired of checking it for the 4 people that might sign it. I't may be gone within the next two-three weeks...I'll be pondering. No Pinky. Try to take over the world... Until then---

Update? For those of you out there still reading, none I'm sure, here's a quick update. I've decided that stupidity prevails. That's the bottom line. The human races demise wiil come due to the obvious capability of us people to not wasnt to do any better than we absolutely have to to get by. I admit that I fall into this category as well, so this is the ultimate generalization including any and everyone. There are different reasons for each of our stupidities but the simple stuff is what will kill us all. Example: A simple complaint to a suite-mate (aka "Not-so-sweet-mate") about a simple thing, unlocking the bathroom door for everyones usage in our suite (not just half of it), can turn into a half hour arguement. Don't ask too many questions, I found it stupid while I was arguing with him, but more for the reason of why should it be that big of a deal to unlock the bathroom door when you're finished with it? It's simple! I had the problem with remembering it, although I always would, so I juist stopped locking it. Simple? Yeah. And so is knocking so that there are no run-ins. Maybe that's his other problem: he doesn't like to knock...at all. He barges into places a lot. That could help if he would have the inclination NOT to do that.
Another example is of me. Unfortunately, there are too many stupid things I do to list them here. I don't know if the web data base could hold all of it! But I know that these simple things that I could have fixed are what is holdong me back from being who I truly want to be. It's a tough thing to see yourself turn into something that you never expected when you actually caused it. I've learned that I need to let go, I'm not in control, but I still want the reigns. I'm sure that is definitely one quality that is common throughout many of us. It's just harder when you know that what you believe calls for handing the control over. I try not to live the hedonistic life but there are so many things out there that almost seem to call for that. The hardest part is when I'm not sure what is supposed to be going on with me and I feel as though I may have chosen incorrectly. At that point I feel the need to do what's best for me. I don't know how right that is, or how wrong, but it leads to confusion for me.
Well, this entry started coz I needed to go to the restroom and I'm locked out of it. So I'm going to break down the door. Right. Until then---

My gosh!!! I've been spending the past few days working on finding a new home for the Fun Forum and potential other pages, mainly for Breakfast Epiphanies. It's tough when you suddenly find out that if you want to keep your current URL (nerd talk for "web site directory") you have to pay. Oh what!?! Yeah, that's what I said! So everything has been switched over to a better place anyway, so HA HA GEOCITIES!!!! I laugh at your face, if... I.. can.. do... that. Now I have some catching up to do on normal life, wait this is my normal life. Sad. I'll pretend that I have a life other than this for about an hour when I'm off playing soccer or video games. I'm sure that you guys thought I meant homework...HA!! That was a one time occurance; I swear it will never happen again. While I'm not on the topic, sign my guestbook! It's not there for looks! and if it was, that's sad coz it's an eyesore! it's an eyesore to get your attention! it needs your attention to get signed! So, for it's sake, make it seem as though it has a purpose. Don't you feel sad now...tell me about it. Litereally! Until then---